This is my fifth IVF cycle and I am on higher dosages of more medications than ever before. At the peak of my cycle I will be taking 4 shots a day plus a few oral medications. Today I injected three different medications. But I am not complaining, I was super geeked to start today. I feel awesome, full of energy, and physically well. As usual, I have a really good feeling about this time.
This has to be it.
Its impressive how resilient the human mind can be, how we can hope without abandon no matter what we have been through. Its a miracle really.
I was listening to a TED talk this week and the speaker discussed that the average human being has an emotional status quo that he returns to after highs and lows. Even after tragedy, people generally find their emotional “normal” after three months. Three months!
Too bad for those of us trying to conceive that the average menstrual cycle is only one month. Alas, we never get to fully heal before the next month rolls around and we are back in the game.
While we may never get back to normal, at least we can hope that before that three months is up we will be pregnant and our pain will become a distant memory. And it is that hope that has me full of joy and dreaming about what could be tonight.
Three shots? No problem.
You can do what you want with my body… as long as there is a chance I might have a baby in 9 months.
(Within reason, there is very little that I would allow nasty R. Kelly to do with my body).